tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16222734772679804202024-02-20T09:15:46.965-08:00When love takes overRojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.comBlogger21125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-45276256188874304232010-12-22T14:30:00.000-08:002010-12-22T14:30:35.518-08:00David Bowie's "Stay" revisited.<div>Carlos Alomar came by way of The Apollo Theater in Harlem, James Brown and the Main Ingredient when he met up with David Bowie in 1974. Alomar brought in bassist George Murray and drummer Dennis Davis, this rhythm section formed the core of Bowies studio work thru 1980.</div><div><br />
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</div>Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-82945787304314139162010-11-13T10:20:00.000-08:002010-11-13T10:20:48.790-08:00Happy ThanksgivingWell the one year anniversary of my epiphany came and went, I've been busy at the new job and haven' gotten a chance to post. I have started to ease back into the dating scene this year, boy am I rusty. Every once in a while I have to remind myself to let my love for myself take over. I am a much better person when I let this happen.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-84430653540071348802010-04-04T10:59:00.000-07:002010-04-04T10:59:04.437-07:00Spring is here!Well this was a tuff winter, I switched jobs (which is still an ongoing battle) and haven't made the headway on major self improvement that I had hoped for. Depression is an ongoing battle too, this winter wasn't too bad, I got down in the dumps a little bit but I fought back. This was reflected in my performance at work, I got a commendation from the owner and a letter of recommendation from a client. None of that would have happened if I didn't work hard to keep my attitude good and my spirits high.<br />
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I bought Aventura's CD, The Last, lots of nice songs and I really enjoy track 14. I also bought Shakira's She Wolf, thats a really good CD, very consistent, I like every song.<br />
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And if my true love reads this, I am looking for you, I will find you and I will make love to you with my soul.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-4551443221442883192010-01-31T16:15:00.000-08:002010-01-31T17:35:28.091-08:002010 GrammysThe Grammys have come a long way over the years, when I was a teenager it was about Rock 'n Roll. these days Rock takes a second seat to the big dogs of Pop. As always many genres are not broadcast, but there is some real good stuff on the nominees list. Take <a href="http://www.grammy.com/nominees">a look</a> for yourself, and please scroll down a bit.<br />
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Record of the year: I think its between "I got a Feeling", "Poker Face" with Halo having an outside chance. Album of the year, will it be The Fame by Lady Gaga? IIRC 5-6 top ten hits. Or The End by the BEP, 2 monster number one chart toppers, or Beyonce with her I am Sasha Fierce? Dave Mattews and Taylor Swift have to be taken seriously too, sometimes its one artists year, they just march out of the hall clutching 4-5-6 statues. Or sometimes the grammys are distributed, Best Record may not go to the artist who wins best album. I do think Lady Gaga does not go home without a Grammy or 2, thats for sure.<br />
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Song of the year: For me Its either Put a ring on it or Poker Face. Best New Artist I'm going with Keri Hilson or Zac Brown, Keri sounds great and is gorgeous so I'm picking her. Best Female Vocal, it might come down to Beyonce and Taylor Swift.... I will predict a trouble selection though.<br />
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Best Male vocal looks to play out between 3 young bucks vs. a couple of old school dudes, Stevie Wonder and Seal need to make the case that neither John Legend, Maxwell and Jason Mraz. Mraz's Make it Mine is an infectious pop tune by the popular guitarist, while Maxwell's Love You has a good old R&B flavor to his voice, John Legends This Time is done straight up. I think its a toss up between Maxwell and John Legend.<br />
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May favorite for best collaboration is Willie Nelson and Norahs Jones's remake of the classic Christmas love song Baby its Cold Outside. Best Pop Vocal album: This might be a chance for someone else to get a Grammy, like Pink or Kelly Clarkson.<br />
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David Guetta and Kelly Rowland are up for 2 Grammys for When Love Takes Over, best dance and best remix. The song was #1 in the US dance hit, #1in Europe, and #1 International dance hit on the Billboard charts. If the Boom Boom Pow gets best dance, then When Love Takes Over should get a grammy for best remix. So I predict David and Kelly will go home with with at least one Grammy. The song When Love Takes Over is this blogs namesake and one of my favorite songs of 2009 and I'm really rooting for Kelly to take home 2 Grammys. If her vocal performance is any indicator Kelly might get 2 Grammies, but David Guetta is a big name as a DJ and he might get picked for best remix so the Black Eyed Peas can get a best dance Grammy for Boom Boom Pow.<br />
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It is interesting that Guetta is up for Best Electronic Dance album, as is :Lady Gaga and Britney Spears is also up for best dance opposite Kelly Rowland, I just don't see When Love Takes Over getting shut out.<br />
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Traditional Pop, Rock Solo, Rock Group, Best Hard Rock, Best Metal, Best Rock Instrumental. Lamb of God, I can't find my way back home, Tony Bennet, Nickleback. If Best Rock Album goes old school, it'll be Clapton and Winwood, Live @ Madison Square Garden.<br />
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Jody Whatley, on her Facebook page mentioned Lalha Hathaway, so shes my dark horse pick vs Beyonce for Best Female R&B Vocal. Best male R&B Vocalist: I'm picking Anthony Hamilton's Point Of It All, his Facebook page has like 150k friends, the girls love him, and frankly his song has a way better groove than Maxwells.<br />
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Anyway its nearly 8:30pm and I'm skipping so many great categories, R&B group, Traditional R&B Vocal Group, Urban and Alternative, More R&B, Rap, Country, Gospel, Jazz, Latin Jazz, Tropical Latin, Latin Rock. The list is quite extensive.<br />
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Husband and Wife, Susan Tedeschi and Dereck Trucks are each up for Best Contemporary Blues Album and Duke Robillard for Best Traditional Blues Album, good luck to all 3 of you.<br />
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One more word, Aventura, they're just huge.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-86429190327736694952010-01-19T17:59:00.000-08:002010-01-19T17:59:14.227-08:00Nikki Armstrong heads up an afternoon of Jazz for Haiti Disaster Relief.<span class="style13vbGoldItal">Sunday, January 24th: Jazz Fundraiser: Disaster Relief for Haiti from 12 noon 'till 5:00 PM</span><br />
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Jazz Fundraiser: Disaster Relief for Haiti<br />
Trumpets is sponsoring an afternoon of Jazz to raise funds to help our Haitian brothers and sisters in their time of need. 100% of the door and 20% of food and drink will be given directly to the Red Cross to help the poor, displaced and injured. The number of casualties will go up from disease and neglect, if the survivors do not immediately receive medical attention and supplies, food, potable water and shelter. Please support our efforts by joining us on the 24th. <br />
Sunday, January 24, 2010<br />
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$20 music donation $12 minimum <br />
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<span class="style12a"> </span><span class="style12a">Ed Alstrom, Rio Clemente, Ted Curson, Vinnie Cutro, Rich DeRosa, John DiStefano, Enrico Granafei, Billy Hart, Cynthia Holiday, Bruce Jackson, Sarah James, Mike Kaplan, Betty Liste, Anna Maria Mannarino, Kristine Massari, Joe Politi, Dave Rimelis, Dave Stryker, Vinny Valentino, Marlene Ver Planck, Roseanna Vitro, Kate Baker and many more!</span><br />
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Please make a reservation since seating will be limited. We have requested that a representative be present at the event to receive any additional donations. Call for further information and reservations.<br />
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NJ Transit from NYC to Walnut Train station Montclair, NJ. <br />
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SNOOKIE LOOK-ALIKE CONTEST (judged by the cast)<br />
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Billboard #1 recording artist:<br />
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KIM SOZZI PERFORMING LIVE!!!!<br />
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All of her smash hits!<br />
"Feel Your Love" | "Like a Star" | "Break Up" | "Alone" | "Life Goes On"<br />
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Music by resident DJ's<br />
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501 Lounge<br />
501 Bloomfield Ave.<br />
Montclair NJ.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-1704354862467557092010-01-01T11:12:00.000-08:002010-01-01T12:44:03.840-08:002010, Jody Whatley "Looking forward"<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiee89ZkkCauCOHSYoWSXL-a26phPN2vEdjiHZZQt5JClg0zzbrcTbEMG9kobTklxeUavkO-z9a8fsxpgFqURIyyjkF-Olz-dHi0uWki3QGs8CKdHGbU4HVz2Nx8VadhiXtGWqB3QSV7wpp/s226/MAKECD101_out2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 226px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiee89ZkkCauCOHSYoWSXL-a26phPN2vEdjiHZZQt5JClg0zzbrcTbEMG9kobTklxeUavkO-z9a8fsxpgFqURIyyjkF-Olz-dHi0uWki3QGs8CKdHGbU4HVz2Nx8VadhiXtGWqB3QSV7wpp/s226/MAKECD101_out2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />In the Spirit of the New Year, Jody Whatley asks an interesting series of questions on her <a href="http://jodywatleyblog.blogspot.com/2009/12/looking-forward.html">blog:</a><br /><br /><blockquote>Having said that memories and looking back are also important. What did you learn about yourself? Did you achieve what you wanted? Did you make better decisions for yourself, adjusting your sails when you needed to? Memories do serve us, they can be a litmus test for good things if you use them well as a reminder of what we did wrong and what we got right. Memories can also make us smile or sharpen our focus and improve as people.<br /></blockquote><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">What did I learn about myself?</span> I learned what sort of things triggered negative thoughts in my life, I learned to recognize these events in near real time, and developed a tool kit that allows me to counter depressive events, negative trains of thought with good, uplifting positive thoughts. Something so strong and uplifting, like the opening notes of a song that can make me straighten out my shoulders, lift my chin up to look at the world straight in the eye with a smile that says I am wiser, smarter, and I'm going to have that <a href="http://loveandrenewal.blogspot.com/2009/10/story-of-personal-renewal.html">beautiful life</a>. And I am not going to feel guilty about loving myself.<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Did you achieve what you wanted?</span> No, but never the less I achieved things of great value . I didn't buy a house, marry, start a family, start a business, become financially independent. In fact these <a href="http://loveandrenewal.blogspot.com/2009/10/story-of-personal-renewal.html">dreams</a> I had as a younger man became lost in the mud of life and my <a href="http://loveandrenewal.blogspot.com/2009/10/ive-been-stuck-in-rut-living-my-own.html">epiphany</a> this summer cleared the waters, so that I can work to reclaim my dreams. And have new dreams. It took 8 months, but I found a new job where I can make a little bit more money, just enough to give me the room I need to lay claim to my dreams, just enough room to go back to my creative roots, my dancing, being a musician, being a singer, my acting, my writing.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Did you make better decisions for yourself, adjusting your sails when you needed to?</span> Oh man, this whole experience has been more than an adjustment of my sails, I put up a new mast and all new canvass on this baby, and now shes fast sleek and a lot more maneuverable. I have a business plan for my life, I learned how and why I would sabotage myself, and yes, I'm making better decisions for myself.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Memories do serve us, they can be a litmus test for good things if you use them well as a reminder of what we did wrong and what we got right.</span> I have a memory. About an ex-girlfriend, "the one that got away", she could make love with her soul, in the middle of a dance floor surrounded by 100 people she could touch my hair above my ear with her fingers, look deep into my eyes and simply take us away to a private cosmic place, like another universe that was just ours. I didn't know a woman could do that. My mind thought it should be possible, but my heart and soul had no clue.<br /><br />I experienced that true pure love one time, I want it again, I know its real. And now I have the emotional foundation nesessary to attract the woman/soulmate I want, and the financial foundation is soon to be.<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://loveandrenewal.blogspot.com/2009/11/i-know-i-can-i-will-fulfill-my-dreams.html">I know, I can, I will, full-fill, my dreams</a>. :-).<br /></div>Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-82705623333307247772009-12-29T22:07:00.000-08:002009-12-29T22:17:33.692-08:00I just read the most incredible Myspace profile.I cried. This person had something terrible happen to them in 2009, and they poured their heart out to Myspace. So I wrote this person a letter:<br /><br />Dear XXXXX,<br /><br />I'm a single guy a little bit older than you. I've never been married, no kids, probably can't have any anyway. I've been stuck in a rut for quite a few years, I've lived a dead end life for a while. The last 5 years I have embarked on a project of self improvement. Well this summer I had an epiphany. I learned so much about myself so fast it was scary ( At 1st I had no idea what or what was going on). I learned to not feel guilty about loving myself, bad self esteem went out the window, I learned what was triggering depressive episodes in me, how to spot the triggers in real time and figured out how to reverse their effects, dumped 51 years of emotional baggage all in 6 weeks. I'm not the person I use to be.<br /><br />I guess I'm a late bloomer.<br />SO I decided to start a blog about my experience, and I've been pouring my heart out. Its been cathartic, cleansing, empowering, invigorating. My firend Ehrick told me my new blog was quite bold, riske. And then I read your blurb on Myspace. I am stunned. You're bold, pouring your heart out like that to whoever.<br /><br />Heres my first blog entry<br /><br />http://loveandrenewal.blogspot.com/2009/10/story-of-personal-renewal.html<br /><br />And this one explains a bit more<br /><br />http://loveandrenewal.blogspot.com/2009/10/ive-been-stuck-in-rut-living-my-own.html<br /><br />I'm not sure what happened to you, I don't need to know either, but after reading your blurb I really wanted to reach out to you and say hi.<br /><br />Roger Fox<br /><br />Dear stranger, I know from what you've written you're very brave.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-31659156735402116242009-12-24T19:40:00.000-08:002009-12-29T13:19:42.197-08:00My love for myself has taken over....... my life.On September 15th, 2009 in mid epiphany, not sure if I was going crazy, not knowing if I could hold on to who I was, I started to realized I was in the middle of a good thing, I didn't know what it was, but it was good, the crazy waves of emotional joy and trauma started to slow in frequency and intensity. So I called my Mom. I tried to tell her what I was going thru, and you know what, she understood what was happening to me more than I could have hoped for.<br /><br />A few days later we talked again, I told her I had learned about depressive triggers, things I did, or let be done to me, that in essence turned my spirit towards depression, and how I had learned to see these triggers much quicker and earlier. My Mom told me of a conversation she had over 40 years ago with a marriage councilor, that went something like this: when you start to feel like your getting down you need to play some uplifting music, music that compells you to dance. For my Mom that was Latin music ( I remember my Mom played Mariachi music ), she told me that I needed to do something like that. I told her I already was! (KTUFM, 103.5 & 97.7 in NYC metro area play some great dance music, freestyle, house, remixes and mashups)<br /><br /><br />Its now Christmas Eve, I really have my gift for this year, my freedom. Freedom from being depressed, freedom from sabotaging myself because of poor self esteem, freedom from not feeling guilty that I love myself. Let me tell you, the second half of my life is going to be a real Pissah........<br /><br />I wish you could see me now, I have this great big smile on my face because I know that love has taken over :-).Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-82501273489543243622009-12-24T13:43:00.000-08:002009-12-29T13:19:42.198-08:00Kelly Rowland Live in Bulgaria performing When Love Takes Over"The song that is the inspiration for this blog, the song that brings a smile to my face, to my heart, to my soul, every time I hear it, every time I sing it. Kelly Rowland in Bulgaria performing an awesome version of "When Love Takes Over", you might note that Kelly sings just the title to start, and before she finishes delivering that one line the entire crowd is singing with her, testimony to the power of her number one Billboard dance hit to make people dance and sing along, and feel good. Don't forget, When Love Takes Over we all know how good it feels! Thanks to <a href="http://www.blogger.com/Kelly-Rowland.net">Kelly-Rowland.net </a>for making this quality audio available.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.zshare.net/audio/7023158881fb6958/">zSHARE - Kelly-Rowland.net 04 Loop Live 2009 - When Love Takes Over.mp3</a>Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-88152375708274306202009-12-21T09:08:00.000-08:002009-12-29T13:19:42.200-08:002 different placesI have a friend who is recently divorced, and is thoroughly enjoying her freedom. And has great difficulty seeing where I am, Never married, wanting to find "that girl" and take that plunge.<br /><br />I believe in true pure love, she's like , what evah....Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-42822015952845378992009-11-17T09:15:00.000-08:002009-12-29T13:19:42.202-08:00I know, I can, I will, fulfill my dreamsSometimes I feel the need for some hi energy music and empowering and self affirmational lyrics. <br /><br /><blockquote>It's a difficult world and you have to prove <br />That you're ready and you can do it</blockquote><br />And when I feel that desire to be uplifted, when I want feel compelled to raise my arms over my head, move my hips and dance with all that I am, one of the best songs ever is Living Joys, "Dont Stop Moving". Sung by <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Livin%27_Joy">Tameka Starr</a> (Doris Diggs), this song always cranks me up to Warp 9, give it a listen, your Dilithium Crystals will never feel better, lol!<br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/eis9bOYweVo&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/eis9bOYweVo&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="210" height="170"></embed></object><br /><br />I truly wish I had more of this ingredient in my soul when I was a younger man, but theres no time for regrets, no place for blame, theres no time to waste in the second half of my life, I've got to get it right.......<br /><br /><blockquote>Oh yeah<br /><br />Oh yeah...<br /><br />You've got to<br /><br />Oh yeah<br /><br />Oh yeah...<br /><br />You've got to get it right<br /><br /><br /><br />You can do anything that you want to do<br /><br />With your mind body and soul<br /><br />Do it, prove it to yourself and say<br /><br />I want (I want)<br /><br />I will (I will)<br /><br />I can do anything<br /><br />It's a difficult world and you have to prove<br /><br />That you're ready and you can do it<br /><br />Nothing in this world can stop you<br /><br />I know I can I will forfill my dreams<br /><br /><br /><br />Don't stop movin'<br /><br />Keep it up<br /><br />Keep on movin' get it right<br /><br />Yeah you've got to get it right<br /><br />Oh yeah oh<br /><br />Don't stop movin'<br /><br />I it's your life<br /><br />Keep on movin' get it right<br /><br />Yeah you've got to get it right<br /><br /><br /><br />You can be mystical magical<br /><br />Physically phenomenal<br /><br />Good to go<br /><br />Not slow<br /><br />Feel the heat and let it flow<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />You've got to get it right</blockquote>Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-33066221433419219502009-10-26T13:23:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.204-08:00Break up songsI think the first break up song I "got" was Gloria Gaynor's I will survive, recently covered by the Pussycat Dolls.<br />I think a vital part of moving on after a break up is the self affirmation. Whitney Houston sings it real nice:<br /><br /><blockquote>It's not right but it's okay<br />I'm gonna make it anyway<br />Pack your bags up and leave<br />Don't you dare come running back to me<br />It's not right but it's okay<br />I'm gonna make it anyway<br />Close the door behind you<br />Leave your key<br />I'd rather be alone than unhappy </blockquote><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ixCJrEZSq0w&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ixCJrEZSq0w&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />But <span style="font-weight:bold;">I'm gonna make it anyway</span>. Because my soul is just that good, and any good woman is going to feel my soulshine and know that with just one touch... she'll wipe that past away.....<br />Self affirmation, knowing you love yourself makes it so much easier to stride right into your future. The future is where I'll find the woman who has that one touch...Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-86926466463100838902009-10-25T22:22:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.206-08:00I meant it, I'll love you fore everAnd it still holds true. After all thats happened in life, my first true love has stayed with me for over 20 years. That crazy intense pure love you showered me with is still there, in a special place, nice and safe. I'll carry that love with me as I move forward, as I love again, and again.<br /><br />I've put you up on a pedestal, and then knocked you down. But when all is said and done I've loved, hard fast pure and true. I recognize the same in other couples, not all, some, and its not rare, but its not common. And its something I experienced after only dating you for a few months. Intense pure love.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-85713973420506529022009-10-20T18:54:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.208-08:00I know these things are real.Mujer latina son las más bellas del mundo Me considero una persona muy alegre. La edad de un hombre de la apertura de la puerta del coche de su fecha, y teniendo en su mano cuando sale no es una época pasada. Como ya someterse a una renovación personal, recuperar mis sueños, el papel de los dados del romance, en medio de la peor crisis económica en 70 años sigo siendo impulsado a diario en mi búsqueda del amor verdadero, puro.<br /><br />Some disparate points:<br />This summer I started a period of renewal for me. I believe in love at first sight, it happened to me once, though it took me 4 dates to realize it, :-). I was raised by a single mom and I only want the kind of 50/50 emotional relationship she ultimately found and still enjoys to this day. I want that higher level of communication, where phrases, and body language can mean whole paragraphs, and that results in no arguing. I want to find a woman who has a beautiful heart & soul, a soul that has a pleasant flavor.<br /><br />I've had these things before, I know they are real. All this, a great smile, incredible eyes, hips & legs will start a fire in my mind body and soul.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-21482400587273810532009-10-19T13:46:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.210-08:00Sweet anticipation. Waiting for tonight, When you would be here in my armsWaiting for Tonight by J-LO. I listened to this song on the radio the other day, it was played right after Kim Sozzi's "Feel your Love Tonight" and the dual themes of renewal and the knowledge that I love and will be loved, brought me to tears of joy.<br /><br /><blockquote>Like a movie scene<br />In the sweetest dreams<br />I have pictured us together<br />Now to feel your lips<br />On my fingertips<br />I have to say is even better<br />Then I ever thought it could possibly be<br />It's perfect, it's passion, it's setting me free<br />From all of my sadness<br />The tears that I've cried<br />I have spent all of my life<br /><br />Waiting for tonight, oh<br />When you would be here in my arms<br />Waiting for tonight, oh<br />I've dreamed of this love for so long <br /></blockquote><br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/W2uHW1h5uWY&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/W2uHW1h5uWY&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="460" height="270"></embed></object><br /><br />I want that higher level relationship based on a higher level of communication, where phrases, and body language can mean whole paragraphs. I want to find a woman who has a beautiful heart, a beautiful soul, a soul that can please me.<br /><br />I've had these things before, I know they are real. All this, a great smile, incredible eyes will start a fire in my mind body and soul.<br /><br />The age of a man opening the car door for his date, and taking her hand as she steps out is not a bygone era. As I undergo a personal renewal, reclaim my dreams, role the dice of romance, in the middle of the worst economic crisis in 70 years I remain buoyed daily in my search for true, pure love.<br /><br />So ladies if this 51 year old man (who can pass for mid 30's, 32 inch waist, 170#'s, 5ft 11) seems remotely like your thing, then seek me out, I could be showing up at your front door on a rainy evening with my umbrella as we make our way to a night of dancing.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-63484598038969504542009-10-13T21:47:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.212-08:00Getting over that old flameI hadn't really thought about Michele much over the years, but the summer of my epiphany brought back much in the way of memories, desires, blame and regrets. I wondered when it would end, and this week it started to fade. The bad news is the girl I experienced pure true blue love with, willingly walked into an abusive relationship, years later divorced and looks to be dating a man built like her father, who taught her that abusive behavior is love, in the first place. <br /><br />That is not the beautiful girl I knew. Its real hard to desire her, as gorgeous as she looks at 48 years old.<br /><br />Today I spent the whole day thing about this girls profile at match.com, 49 years old, shes from Long Island, my old stomping grounds, but 40 miles from Montclair NJ. But now I'll have to pay for a membership, just so I can send her a message.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-55164790964669471012009-10-05T08:45:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.214-08:00A song of renewal by Kim SozziFormer Mynt singer and solo artist <a href="http://www.kimsozzi.com/flash_index.htm">Kim Sozzi</a> has a strong hit on the dance charts. Sozzi shows her song writing chops with a touch of melancholy in her lyrics reminiscent of the of Everything But The Girl's "<a href="http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&client=firefox-a&rls=org.mozilla%3Aen-US%3Aofficial&hs=KHr&q=everything+but+the+girl+deserts+miss+the+rain&aq=0&oq=Everything+But+The+Girl+desert&aqi=g1">The Desert Miss The Rain</a>", but Sozzi starts at a darker place before the story of renewal unfolds:<br /><br /><blockquote>All that time alone made me go insane<br />Wasn't hard to see i had lost control</blockquote><br /><br />After reliving every traumatic emotional experience in my life, over and over, during the summer of 2009, I wasn't sure I was sane during this process, I couldn't control it, it was just triggered and the process flowed thru me, cleaning out 2 decades+ of emotional baggage in just 6 weeks. Every old girl friend finally started to become a ghost, every dirty trick my father pulled on me became faded.<br /><br /><blockquote><br />Holdin on to pain made it hard to breathe<br />Couldnt get away from my memories</blockquote><br /><br />I realized my memories of my first pure true love Michele had held me back from ever achieving that same higher level relationship with another woman. And the best way to put those memories in their place is to make some new memories:<br /><br /><blockquote>Then you wiped my tears with your soothing touch and you flew my past away</blockquote><br /><br />Sozzi describes how a "touch" took her memories away, I'm taking this as good advice, no regrets, no more blaming me or others, just me, a new man moving forward with a good emotional base <br /><br /><br /><br /><blockquote>Wanna leave the past behind..</blockquote><br /><br />Kim Sozzi will be performing at the <a href="http://www.emptybottlesaloon.com/">Empty Bottle Saloon</a> in Middletown New York on October 16th, 2009.<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/2GRMo-MTH4w&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/2GRMo-MTH4w&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="400" height="344"></embed></object>Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-59387606592186069672009-10-03T19:38:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.217-08:00An acoustic version of When Love takes overKelly Rowland performs an acoustic version of "When Love Takes Over" at the Biz Sessions for The Sun UK.<br /><br />Recorded 15th June 2009 in London, UK<br /><br /><object width="560" height="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ai7_mIEQk0A&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ai7_mIEQk0A&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="460" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br /><a href="http://kelly-rowland.net/index.php/2009/10/mobo-awards-2009/">While over at KellyRowland.net....</a>Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-50226340448827204052009-10-03T18:08:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.218-08:00I've been stuck in a rut, living my own Ground Hog day.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOIkCVuWZB_aVAHaRvm_NnQEuIJV-dKFrVmTgMJvOn0xnBrVD8vHIo5d77-EuF8jmo96Tb1D2eeUNYcr_wPBosu3mCls__NDcOVl5cUTgnp0dqx5Fl8eq8lPg8gMHZ55jiWLzQ8aYXCjhH/s1600-h/Roger+Headshot+Motown+green2008.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 183px; height: 216px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOIkCVuWZB_aVAHaRvm_NnQEuIJV-dKFrVmTgMJvOn0xnBrVD8vHIo5d77-EuF8jmo96Tb1D2eeUNYcr_wPBosu3mCls__NDcOVl5cUTgnp0dqx5Fl8eq8lPg8gMHZ55jiWLzQ8aYXCjhH/s320/Roger+Headshot+Motown+green2008.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5388548229662390018" /></a><br />Monday morning July 27th I had a dream. I was in an apartment building and this guy was helping me look for my old first true love, Michele. He told me she lived in the building. Everyone who lived in this building were all girls that were 5 foot four with dark hair. One by one variations of my old flame were walking into the building. I woke up very disturbed, it was an extremely powerful dream. I realized what a total waste I had been, as I must have been in denial, and never faced the facts. I got very pissed at myself. <br /><br />This was the start of an emotionally powerful sequence that had me on the rocks, not sure if I was losing my grip on reality. 30 years of bad experiences pounded me into the sand, like I was at the beach and the waves were overwhelming me.<br /><br />September 15th I came up for air.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1622273477267980420.post-48002229972248821802009-10-03T17:27:00.000-07:002009-12-29T13:19:42.220-08:00A story of personal renewalI am a new man, during my 51st summer I learned to love myself. Kelly Rowland's song "When love takes over' is now my song, her song has become my anthem about beating that little boy with bad self esteem. I threw him under the bus, hopped in the bus and pulled K-turns over him until he was paste, his ghost still haunts me, but only rarely.<br /><br />Love has taken over my life, love for myself. I'm smiling a lot more. As Kelly sings, I wonder if it shows.<br /><br /><blockquote style="color: rgb(51, 51, 153);">It’s complicated, it always is<br />that’s just the way it goes<br />Feels like I’ve waited so long for this<br />I wonder if it shows?</blockquote><br /><br />This blog will chronicle my efforts at personal renewal in the middle of the worst economic period in a hundred years, as I at 51 years old, with a crap job, no home, no future, no wife, no girlfriend, no home I own, no dreams, work to reclaim all of these things.<br /><br /><br /><object width="300" height="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/VM4l6_N4X5Q&hl=en&fs=1&"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/VM4l6_N4X5Q&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="400" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br />Now I'm going to have that beautiful life that I should have had. And I 'm going to be dancing the whole way To all you single girls, I learned my lesson, I shoulda put a ring on it.Rojhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12890579640105871479noreply@blogger.com1